Friday, November 30, 2007

New/Unknown

Okay, so my comp's been fine so far. I'll just attempt to blog. I won't dare to blog about Cadet's Camp yet. I've got the pics! And they're wonderful!! 1GB worth of pictures over 2 days! I was "camera happy". So, I'll only post when I think it's safe enough, cause I don't want to get frustrated.

School's ending tomorrow. Which means the last day with Carolyn and Kathy. Sigh... I'm gonna miss them. I hated the feeling when Nina left, and I have to go through it again soon. I won't have a Fatty and a Shmarolyn - my genius.

I'm also leaving school soon, but they're gonna leave before me. I still have got three more months to call Chempaka PJ my school. It's weird, but I think leaving the whole school would be easier compared to individuals leaving me. I'll miss everyone of course! The Queen, the Freak, SheilaLau, Joce, Jo, Summer, Lizzy, and everyone else ( my brains are fried from doing too much SAT, so forgive me if I forgot your name), but it won't be the same. I guess it's because I'm still in the same environment, the same building, the same classroom where I see the both of them everyday. It'll be so different if they're suddenly not there. But when I leave, I'm in a whole new world.

It's the 30th today, which means four more months to complete everything in this stage of my life. Piano, school, etc... I'll even be an officer by then! I would have completed this part of my life. Sometimes, I can't wait for time to pass and continue to grow in more ways than one. Sometimes, I just want to stay here forever as I look back at my younger days and wish I were there once more. From April onwards, I'll be on a new road. A completely new one where nothing would seem familiar, one that would challenge me to use all that I've learnt so far. Doulos would be in April too, so it'll be months away from home, away from everything I've known.

A normal person would take finishing form 5 and going into college as their new step. It is. But hey, you're still at home, in Malaysia, with family and friends you know. I'll be a complete stranger to my new surroundings. With only one person who's known me forever with me - my Lord Jesus Christ, my Best Friend, my Mentor.

Oh wow, this is kinda the first time it's really hit me. That I won't be alone. I'll have Him to guide me just as He's done for the past 18 years. Past 18 years of my wonderful life.

Four more months. I'll go through it slowly.

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